WHAT IF

I sit here tonight thinking hard about my Aunt Wanda ( mom's sister) and I know why. It's was the topic of prayer/ soul winning led by Pastor Jenkins at Tuesday nights spring confer-ence. I'm not sure what denominational church she was with but for some reason I have this feeling that she was trying to lead me in the direction of the Lord. She was a Sunday School Teacher and very active in her home church in Sikeston Missouri. I spent every summer and every possible school break in this same town w/ my grandparents starting when I was very young. I remember attending her class on one or two occasions but only at the urging of my mom. I guess you could say I'm feeling guilty for not giving her a chance. I think this hit me when Pastor Jenkins spoke about something along the lines of don't let your children see you in prayer as something strange. This was a real nice women and I guess to me she was a little odd because nobody else within the family circle attended church, prayed, or used manners quite like she did and I can't help but wonder if that Bible I got on maybe my 5th birthday was really from her. I recall one summer , could of been my birthday that she came to get me to spend some time with just me. I know I didn't want to go but grandma made me and I did spend a couple hours with my Aunt. I had a nice time but she must of sensed I felt out of place and uncomfortable because I don't recall any other outings with her. I can't help but to think of her everytime I pass that same church remembering how upset our loved ones were at her passing. I might just go visit her resting place and thank her for accepting me and that after all these years I do have the Lord in my life although I think she already knows.